Dinner for Two

Mood: Lazy
Music: Still Alone by Ayumi Hamasaki

Another social experiment with the boys last night. They had floor time and dinner time at the same time. No fighting this time :) It was very nice. I still had to watch them like a hawk, but no balls of fur is a good thing.

I had to take their little forts away. They had estabilished who's box was whos and were having problems getting social. That and the boxes were about to topple over from being chewed on. I think I will pick up some little plastic stools this weekend. The girls love their's.

Lina is making some improvements. She started using her fiddle stick tunnel. She was very scared of it (for no apparent reason) but after Shaggy plopped it on top of her she saw that, really it is just another tunnel and after a few failed attempts (she would get almost all the way through it then walk backwards) she was running through it like a champ. Good girl Lina.

Chirstmas/Yule is soon upon us again. Fun fun. Another season for my mother and her family to ignore me. Lovely. I can't beleive that she's still holding this grudge. It's been a year and a half now. Get over it.

I find the holidays a very strange and stressful time now. I spend very little time with people I am confortable with. Some of our time back home will be spent with Aunti and our friends but the majority of it will be spent with Shaggy's family. Shaggy's family is OK, but they aren't my family. I will always be this odd outsider. Shaggy obviously fits in perfect. He got sloshed and became the life of the party at most of our recent family events. I just sit in the corner nursing a dry coke and attempting to find something vegetarian to munch on and try not to make waves. What is a pagan vegetarian Black Sheep to do?

I have always been an outsider in my own family. And I was fine with that. I still had a place I fit on the fringes. It was nice for 3 years. Though they didn't understand me, nothing I did was seen as *that* strange anymore. They had gotten used to my eccentricities. Religion was never ever problem as no one in my family talks about it ever. My mother was used to 4 picky kids so being vegetarian wouldn't be much of a challenge. None of us play games so it doesn't matter that I can't play cards worth crap. And most of the things that make me seem strange to Shaggy's family are the things that make me normal in mine.

I feel alone the moment I set foot in Windsor. I hide behind my smile and go along with whatever Shaggy has planned (I stopped planning our trips long a go) I have a bit of a good time with my friends but not as much as I do when they visit up here. And then we go home and I'm OK again.

I am always fearful of catching a glimpse of my family. What will I see? Will my siblings look as miserable as my friends tell me? Will my mother look as terrible? Will she put on the same mask and try make things look perfect without me as I will with her? Why are we doing this again?

I just wish she'd get over it and try to build our little family again. Really, I just can't applogize for getting married and I can't undo it. If she hadn't have disowned me in the first place maybe wou could have had a little get togther reception type thing in Windsor like I did for Dad's side of the family, but it would be kinda stupid now.

I begged for forgivness last time and did all the delicate work. I think it's her turn for a change.

I keep listning to "Still Alone". I even looked up the English lyrics, something I don't do too often. One verse stuck a cord:

"I've learned a lot
from being alone."

Indeed I have. Has my mother?

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That feels sooooooo much better. I am much more equipted to deal with the holiday. :) I love blogging. It really helps to get ones fears and rants on paper.

Testing 1,2,3...

Mood: A wee bit sleepy, but other wise A-Ok
Music: Key ~eternal tie ver.~ by Ayumi Hamasaki

Hopefully I finally found a blogger client that is free and works. I will be more likely to blog if I don't need to open a whole other browser. For some reason the thought of having 2 browser apps running at the same time really really bugs me. It's like a waste of time and reasources. I have a browser I love, so why can't people support it dammit!?

The program I am using right now is called iBlog. It looks like a nice clean little app. I hope it works as well as I want it too. It is quite pretty. Let's see if it supports images shall we:
edit: Pics don't work. I'll have to see if blogger uses tags or something like that.

If not I can always use the Blogger web portal for that.

I almost switched over to LJ, but LJ doesn't support FTPing your blog to your own domain. That kinda sucks. I like having things in my own little space. That's why I *pay* for a domain.

I would really like to find mood and music tags for Blogger though. It kind sucks typing them out. And I'd like to have cute little icons to match them. To me it's akin to all the cute things I download for The Sims.

That and Blogger just looks nicer. I really like the ability to customize so much and I like the layout and how things work.

If it ain't broke don't fix it.

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In other news: Spinel gained a bit of weight! He is up to 1, 144g. Yay!

I also have a lot of craft projects I am meaning to either finish or post pics of. I made a hay bag, a cage blanket and several things for Lina. I am always making things for Lina. She is forever getting bored with her toys. She has moved up from GP toys to rabbit toys. She is such a smart little pig.

I am also working on two plastic canvas projects, more cage blankets and toys for Lina, a cross stitch I am giving Aunti for x-mas and a toy box for Lina. I also really have to get around to all the site upgrades. I have done 2 sites out of 5. The forum is nice the way it is and the front page just needs a few updates in the about section (I have to add Lina and Spinel to the pet page) I really really have to get around to the main site upgrade. I also want to revamp the blog layout. I am always so busy with a million little things :P No wonder I act like such a blonde.

Well here goes nothing. Let's see if this little app can do what it claims it can.

Add on: It works but has a few kinks. I'll have to figure out how to make a title and other stuff like that. Very fast app though. I like it.

Step By Step...

Mood: Content
Music: Who by Ayumi Hamasaki

I got my fith piggie. I actually adopted him a while ago. I really have to start updating this thing more often. :P Doesn't help that Blogger doesn't play nice with Safari and the only time I use Firefox is when I am ordering a pizza.

My friends AliceMcMallis and CathMiller from Guinea Lynx drove me all the way out to the Hamilton SPCA to pick up a male buddy for Kerberos. My eyes lit in wonder when I first laid eyes on my handsome abyruvian boar Spinel Sun. I had picked him out on the GL Cavy Placement forums weeks before. I had "reserved" him through Alice. And I finally got to pick him up, my huge furry Spinel Sun. Isn't he a looker?
He's such a demanding little man! I love his litte bi-coloured lips! :)

But he and Kero have not formed the brotherly bond I hoped they would. Or maybe they have and brothers are really just jerks to each other. Who knows. Kero gave Spinel a big cut that got infected no matter what I did about it. He has slowly been going down hill since. His cut is better but he never regained his lost weight. He is going in for x-rays and blood work Friday. Please cheer poor Spinel on! You can follow his very own GL thread here.

Relations between Spinel and Kero are slowly improving. Moving them into a seperate room from my 3 sows has helped a lot. I took away what they were bickering about. I let them play together for an hour every other day. I have to watch them less and less each time. I still have to sit next to the every minute, but they are getting better. I was even able to get pictures!



As for the girls, they are pretty much the same. Lina is still scared shitless of other pigs and Sakura and Tomoyo are still strangely bonded. The only differnece is that Lina slowly went from only being here a while, to being here for the long run. But who can resist this face?
Or these faces. Litte monkeys they are. They really don't like being out of the cage when Shaggy or I are about:
Well I really really have to go to be. Shaggy will be dissapointed that I stayed up so late. He went to bed 2 hours ago.

This really does make me feel better. I really have to do this more often when things are going good, not just when things are rotten. You all probably think I am just one big drama queen. :P

Night.