Simple Pleasures

Mood: Introverted verging on upset
Music: None, it's to early for that.

I want another guinea pig. I want one really really badly, and at first I didn't quite know why and why it ment so much to me. At first I thought it was because of Lina. Lina has spolied me for all of my pigs. She likes to be held. She falls asleep on my lap. She stands up on her hind legs on the grids, I can pet her in the cage. Unless I'm carrying food my trio think I'm the devil incarnate, here to pick them up and tourture them.

I also thought it was because I am going to be a wreck when Lina goes home. But really between her fragility and her looks, I won't be as heart broken. I love having her over for a visit, but I don't want her here forever. It doesn't help that I made myself not get attached to her, on purpose, so it won't kill me when she goes home. In my mind I'm always telling myself that she is Slap's plucky little pig. (Who gained weight this week!)

So I searched for the real reason and my brain fell upon Kero's upcomming neuter. I am really nervous about that. My friend came over last night and had to bring two of her pigs with her, one for neuter complications 9 months post neuter. It almost looks like you have to watch them for the rest of thier lives if they get neutered. Not fun and super expensive. Considering the original cost would be $300 + $60 for a pre neuter check up, I don't want to spend $60 each time his remodled plumping has problems. I would rather get Kero a spayed female friend or a male friend.

But why would that create a pressing need when I have felt that ever since I found out he was male?

I think it has to do with the fact that my animals are one of the few things left I enjoy. Hurting my back has limited my enjoyment of alot of things. I can barely go shopping without tiring myself out. I tried last weekend when Shaggy's parents came up and I ended up in so much pain Monday night I was almost crying. My father wants to come up and go to Canada's Wonderland. If we do I'll be spending almost the whole time sitting on benches. Most of those rides tell you not to go on them if you have a bad back.

So really, all I have left is the computer, TV and my animals. It weould stand to reason that's why I want another one.

But I think it runs a bit deeper then that. I feel broken. And I work I feel like I'm some unwanted cost. An anoying burden, even though thier furgal ignorant ways are the reason I am in this condition. I feel like a broken cast off. So maybe that's why I want to help another cast off. The THS just had a whole boat load of pigs come in. I want to help just one. Give one another chance at the home it didn't have. Give one the love, snuggles and veggies it deserves.

Gods, I'm strange.

I'm feeling crafty

Music: Bad Day by Daniel Powtor
Mood: Crafty

I made a cozy for my foster piggy Lina. I think it turned out quite nice and it makes me feel happy to accomplish something. Here's Lina showing off her new cozy. She's such a happy pigger!